Thursday, October 20, 2011

Thursday's Thought

Get your hands dirty by springknitter
Is there something in your life that you have a passion for?

It's likely not what you do for money and sometimes it's not even what we do on the weekends or in our spare time.

My thought today is to learn about something you love, hands-on, NOW. Start small. Devote yourself to it even just 1 hour a week.

Maybe you offer to barter your labor with an artist to see how they run their studio. Or maybe you submit a short story to a few publications even though they won't pay you right away. Maybe you ask to shadow someone in your dream job by offering your free time to help them with anything they need in exchange for learning what they do. You'd be amazed how many people are willing to share what they do, especially when you're willing to help them out with some of their grunt work.

I personally have a passion for sustainable living. And I love getting my hands dirty. But I had very little knowledge of what it meant to farm your own produce. So on Thursdays I volunteer at a local community garden that supports our local food bank. Of course I love contributing to such a cool cause but it amazes me each time I go, how much I learn about sustainable living and organic gardening. Those three hours, every thursday give me so much knowledge and growth. And my life feels more fulfilling when I'm doing what I love. Who needs money for that?

So how will you get your hands dirty? Dive in and don't be afraid to do what you love for free!

BPositive and BFree to do what you Love!

Love,
B

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Me

I've been in a rut. Uninspired. Not totally happy with my self. Feeling a little ugly and blah. Know the feeling? Yesterday, as per usual this week, I was working but also being irritable and cranky. Needing some creative distractions I started blog hopping (so fun!) This is how I found E's awesome, inspiring blog!  It was a timely find which I was quite grateful for.  I navigated the many channels of her blog and after about 45 minutes I felt like I knew her. E's individuality was written all over the pages with no fear, shame or apologies. She wasn't afraid to show people who she is through imagery, style, self-portraits and words. Even though the blog was all about her style, her ideas, and her life there was nothing boastful or vein about it. It was covered in her self portraits and photography of her looks. I was really touched by this!

Instantly my creativity was back. I am always amazed at how something can move me so suddenly. Seeing how E loved her self so much made me want to give my self the same attention. I typically keep my face off my blog and only insert those images when necessary. And I spend a lot of time worrying that displaying images of myself, even for the sake of displaying my creations would be vein and uncomfortable for people.  E's blog reminded me that I am an individual and not only do I have something to say but I have my own unique characteristics and features.

Sun by springknitter

As I walked to the coffee shop this afternoon I put on some music that inspired my own individuality. I needed some confidence knowing this entry would be a bit awkward for me. It's always been hard for me to be put in the spot light and here I am doing it with my own two hands. But I am here to say I think it's okay to display your individuality. Be confident with it and use all the creativity you've got!

So here I am. It's me and it's raw, and I'm not afraid to show it (well, getting there at least...) I'm not perfect, I'm not always certain, and I have fears and doubts. But I like who I am and I think I've been given something special to share with others. I don't want to stop doing that as long as I am inspired.

Happy and walking by springknitter

I hope others are inspired to dig inside a little and take some self portraits today! I'm not judging you for wanting to see the results, Because it's beautiful. It's unique. It's you.

Me by springknitter

BPositive and BFree to be You!

Love,
B

Monday, October 10, 2011

Obsess on the Positive!

Do you ever wake up in the morning angry about something? Something you didn't even realize was bothering you that much? This morning, I woke agitated about something that was externally and clearly internally, unresolved. And for me personally it always comes back to this one concept...

...Justice

I struggle with this word and always have. It's always been so imperative in my life that things are "fair" and that no one is getting away with lies or schemes.

In a world that has crime and anger and millions of cases of unfairness, I have to pick my battles wisely. And this morning, brooding with frustration, I had to ponder, should I even ever choose a battle at all?

I walked down to the bay with my journal to write out why I was angry, who I was angry with, what they had done, what were the consequences and how important was this issue to me? As I wrote about it, I realized that the issue was not just about what had recently happened but some things that had been happening over time and ultimately my own insecurity with my relationship with this person.


Journal love by springknitter

The obsessing over the justice of this situation was hurting my heart. It was restraining my ability to have a peaceful and productive day. And as I sat by the bay, I decided I wanted to stop.

I was reacting over something I could not externally control and I was trying to change the actions of another person.

The very fact that this issue was eating away at me this morning led me to believe that I was meant to let go of it. I can't force people to do what I want them to do. I can't make the world around me a just place. I can't reverse a situation that has already happened.

But I can choose how I handle my reactions. I can choose to let anger and disappointment wash away into the sea. I can trust that by letting things go they will somehow work out in a way I could not have anticipated.  And most importantly by letting go I can open up channels for positive and beautiful things to come into my life.

Journal love 2 by springknitter

All that being said, I believe my prayers were heard this morning. I wished deeply to let go of this anger and resentment and focus on letting positive things into my life instead. I prayed for help to continue to work on this throughout the day. And I deeply felt that by letting go of anger I'd be opening up channels for beautiful things.  Within minutes I opened my eyes to find a dolphin. She was swimming just 20 feet from where I was sitting. Quite small, perhaps a baby, she glided and in and out of the water, sometimes coming up so high for air that I could see her tiny black eye taking in the morning sunlight. Her sleek shiny back moved so smoothly through the waves. It was such a beautiful miracle this morning to have her join in this moment of realization. As I ran home to tell Adam, I was given a clear indication that the person I was brooding over was putting care and effort into the situation. At that point I didn't even need it anymore but it was a exchange that brought me a sense of peacefulness with what I had accomplished already this morning.

It's amazing what you can do in the first waking hour of your day and its even more amazing what we can receive when we reverse our thoughts and let love in.

Sun 2 by springknitter

BPositive and BPositively Open today! Beautiful things will come right to your door :)

Love always,
B