After 2 nights of almost no sleep you can imagine my difficulty in articulating complex thoughts.
But this state of mind has me thinking about why these past few nights have been restless. A is on a deadline to publish the latest author at his publishing company. It's a complicated photo heavy cookbook with a complex layout.
A is stressed. He comes home in the middle of the night after working 16 hrs straight to get the book to the printer by Thursday. When A is stressed I am stressed.
But why? Why do we do this to ourselves? Is it empathy? Is I frustration that the situation weren't something different? When he's not home until 2 am why cant I just be sleeping?
These situations continue to teach me about being a teammate, a partner, a wife. How can I be the best supporter possible and when do I draw the line?
I guess i don't have all the answers yet but I know a few things. When we're tired, stressed, overworked and impatient, we have to let ourselves feel whatever we're feeling. Write it down. Get it out. Talk it out. But in the end remind ourselves that the feeling will end and a celebration will ensue. There is a always a finish line and if you don't feel like you've crossed it, you just have to push a little further.
A's company's book will be awesome. And it will get done in time. At some point (maybe tonight!) I will sleep and feel much better. And we will learn how to support each other during times like these better and better with practice.
There is beauty in struggle and ultimately how we come out on the other side.
Hope you can find beauty in your challenges today!
BPositive and BFree!